不用工作，不用上学，也不知道自己想做什么工作，Alice就是这么个心无大志的小女人。这样的状态可能还蛮让人羡慕的，不用工作，还是可以出入各种餐厅，花上曾经一个月生活费的几分之一去享受一顿饭！至于自己想要的东西，似乎只要稍微拉下些脸来，说一句我没钱了，就也不是什么问题，只是似乎还是开不了那个口，所以造成自己卡里的钱以飞速状态巨减，想想也不能一直找老爸老妈要钱吧，哎！

发现自己可以越来越流利的说英文了，只是男人老是和我说一些什么老不好的英文，现在alice顺理成章的用fuck代替了曾经经常说的他妈的。想想自己也满不容易的，每天只能说英文，想说些什么还要都翻译成英文，男人和我说话速度越来越快，俚语越来越多。男人和妈妈打电话还表扬alice说alice的听力很好，基本上理解他没有什么问题，呵呵，好开心呀！还是不敢和他妈妈说话，觉得老尴尬的，而且他妈妈还是什么大学的老师之类，对语法这种东西老有研究的，想想自己不能用自己觉得老可爱的英文和个长辈说话吧！男人总是说我说英文和中国人的口音不一样，不过他说这样很cute,其实发现自己和不同的人说英文会差别很大，至少什么面试的时候觉得不敢说那种老可爱的英文，在party里认识的人有的就一定会说。突然发现越来越讨厌英文不好的外国人了，大概这就是自己不喜欢法国人的原因吧，连一句完整的话都说不了，只能说单词，虽然也有些人说的不错，当然最讨厌的就是个外国人和我说中文！

要开始赚钱，要去买衣服，为了一起的秋天，为了一起的冬天！

 

I know u will check my space and i know u will see this one. Just as i told u before,i cannot go to Germany this year and i do not know if i will go there next year.I thought it would be good news for me but i am not so happy as i thought since i must admit u make the trip to Germany more excited.

u do not know once meeting u every week meant so much to me although it was just once per week;u do not know when i rewrote the blog about the memory of that night i still felt so lucky to have that memory;u do not know when my bf said how sexy the lingerie was it reminds me u were the one who bought it for me.U taught me a lot of stuff oral,complex and made me realize how abnormal i can be and get so improved in some aspects maybe it was not so good. Will never forget that day i cried so much in the dorm alone just because of the word in the card u sent me it said u mean a lot to me.U said we would make that night a great night and everning that we will never forget.
now i found Brad, a guy said yes of course when i asked do u love me something i will never get from u. I love him and feel so lucky i can meet him although i know there is no bright future ahead of us.
Anyway maybe u will be in Brazil sooner or later.Just want to say thanks for everything u did for me and gave me.Best wishes and good luck to find someone u love!

After spending several days in a small town in Zhuji,zhejiang province, i finally made it home. My bf went there for a summer camp as a teacher although he did not like to be a teacher.Anyway i spent everyday in the hotel because it was really hot there and as a small town both of us felt like in the middle of nowhere. He will stay there until 22,August.

 

男人又离开了，一个小时不到，就要到达浙江一个叫诸暨的地方，为了生计不得不再次分开十四天，还好这次只是浙江，是个只要我想就马上能去的地方。

回了次家，意识到今年只要有通知书就不得不去德国的现实，似乎每天都在祈祷这些学校都别要我。昨天去了次中介，不出所料，被拒的果然是弗莱堡，唯一一个似乎还对我有点吸引力的德国城市，据说理由是我没有工作经验，开始怀疑中介是不是帮我申请什么MBA要工作经验的那种了。还剩两个学校，中介说中旬会有结果了，说的似乎很紧张，如果中旬还不知道结果，即使月底或者九月再拿到也没什么用了，签证要一个月的时间，但到时候就会说我来不及去报到不签我。中介开始和我说还有很多第二年申请成功的例子，心里还是蛮窃喜的，至少不要让我们这么快分开吧！男人早上走的时候说对不起，我又要离开你了。心里还是很难过，有一天我也不得不对你说，对不起，我不得不离开你...

生活中有些事，有些人，让我觉得很反胃，很恶心，不论是男人或是女人，自重吧！